Today marks four years since the March 15 terror attacks in Christchurch, day described by former Prime Minister Jacinda Ardern as one of our darkest days.
The friends and families of the 51 people killed choose to mark today in private every year.
But, the wider community says each anniversary is a reminder of how their lives too changed forever
Producer Mahvash Ikram spoke to Rhanas Ali who says March 15 gave her the courage to start wearing a headscarf or hijab.