A warning, the next story is distressing.
The High Court in Christchurch has heard what was going through Lauren Dickason's mind in the lead up to killing her children.
She's on trial for the murder of her three young daughters, Maya Karla and Liané in Timaru in September 2021.
She has pleaded not guilty, instead pleading insanity and infanticide.
Niva Chittock reports.
